Following

Table of Contents

The Weight of Will Maria's Reach Yahweh Meets Man Little Angel

In the world of Thirteen Realms

Visit Thirteen Realms

Ongoing 1607 Words

The Weight of Will

42 0 0

Marcus collapsed into bed, exhausted beyond words. Sleep took him instantly.
The dream was different.
He knew he was dreaming—felt the strange double-awareness of it—but the knowledge brought no comfort. His body ached. The exhaustion he'd carried into sleep had followed him here, pressing down on his limbs like lead weights.
He pushed himself to his feet. The effort was immense.
Is gravity heavier here?
The landscape stretched before him: a long horizon of shifting sands, colorless and bleak. Not hot enough to be desert, but the sand and dust blew constantly into his face—no matter which direction he turned. The sky above was bright, achingly bright, but there was no sun. Just light without source, painful to look at.
A flurry of motion. A figure stood beside him, though no one had approached.
He was tall, with the kind of classical good looks that might have graced magazine covers decades ago—a true Adonis, now aged into something more weathered. Long feathered wings arched from his back, raven black like his hair. His eyes held a maturity to them, a world-weariness that Marcus couldn't place.
"You have arrived," the figure said. His voice was parched, as if he hadn't drunk water in centuries.
"Who are you?"
"Long has it been since I had any name I cared to accept. Names mean little here; deeds are far more important." A pause. "You may call me Boaz, if you need something by which to address me."
"Where am I, Boaz?"
"I suppose that does require explanation. Certainly this landscape does not appear how your stories would portray it." Boaz gestured at the endless sand, the sourceless light, the weight pressing down on everything. "But this is Hell. Realm of tempering and resolve. Will made manifest."
Marcus looked around. No fire. No torment. No screaming souls or cackling demons.
"Hell? Really? No fire or torment?"
Boaz smiled through parched lips. "No. Heaven's propaganda has had clear effect. Hell, as Realm, is driven by the straining against That Which Ends. Nothing more."

"Are you a fallen angel? A demon?"
Boaz's expression flickered with annoyance. "'Fallen'? As if I did not walk out myself. 'Demon'? No—I am not one of the native beings of this Realm." He folded his black wings tighter against his back. "Yes, in the way your kind understands things, I am one of the 'Fallen.' Mark this, though: I stepped away. The Morningstar was right. Raising your kind as cattle to be milked for Faith was wrong. It is wrong."
"I don't understand. You came here on purpose?"
"What better Realm to bear the scorn of Heaven?"
The weight pressed down on Marcus as he considered this. Every breath required effort. Every thought felt slow, dragged through honey.
"What does Heaven think of your retreat here? Won't they come for you?"
Boaz laughed—a hearty sound, unexpected in this bleak landscape. "No. Angels cower to think of coming here. The weight is too great to be borne. Michael will not set foot in Hell. He is too much a coward to face himself."
"What do you mean?"
"Hell has a... mass to its importance in the cosmos. And angels have their own sense of self-importance. They accuse us of pride. Ridiculous." Boaz's eyes glittered. "Their own egos would hold them here more surely than the gravity of your Realm. Yahweh himself, were he to deign to involve himself, would find himself chained here. Like an object of great weight falling to your Earth, the larger the presence of one who enters here—weighed down by his own weaknesses—the harder Hell will hold him."
He spread his hands.
"Michael or Yahweh are too much to even stand straight here. They would be weighed down more than mighty Atlas ever was."

Marcus woke gasping, the phantom weight still pressing on his chest.
He did not forget the dream.

Weeks later, at Jack's Tavern, the conversation turned to Hell.
"Ashmedai," Marcus asked, "what does imposing Hell mean in another Realm? What does Hell's power look like? Is it just resistance?"
The Fallen turned to Jack, something formal in his bearing. "Jack? May I demonstrate? Upon my spirit, I swear no harm nor ill intent. Per my Contract at the threshold, I raise no hand against another, seek no violence nor injury."
Jack raised his lantern. The light brightened, watchful.
"Let no weapon be raised in hate. Let no violence be done."
The lantern flared in acknowledgment.
Ashmedai nodded and motioned to the center of the room. Tables cleared, patrons stepping back with the practiced ease of beings who had seen demonstrations before. A stone circle replaced the normal wooden floor of the tavern. He handed Marcus a small spear—light, simple, training weight.
"We are sparring only," Ashmedai said firmly, his eyes on the lantern with great respect. "Strike me if you can."
Marcus lifted the spear. "Okay."
He thrust forward—
And the spear was suddenly much heavier than it had been. The tip drooped. His arms strained. What should have been a clean strike became a feeble push, barely connecting with Ashmedai's open palm. Not even hard enough to draw blood.
Then Ashmedai clamped his hand closed.
The weight came down.
Marcus felt it before he understood it—an insane pressure building around him, driving him to his knees, then flat to the ground. Ashmedai gestured downward with his closed fist, and the floor beneath Marcus cracked, stone splintering as if a giant had stomped on him.
He couldn't breathe. Couldn't move. The weight was everything.
Jack's lantern brightened sharply.
Ashmedai relaxed his hand. The weight vanished. Marcus lay gasping and writhing on the floor, every muscle trembling.

"Interesting," Marcus managed, after coughing his way back to his feet. "That was... not what I expected. I was picturing hellfire, maybe?"
Jack laughed. "Oh, hellfire is real enough. Think of it as friction, to use a mortal comparison. Hellfire is the leaking loss of energy from overcoming. Had Ashmedai held that spear instead of you, his strength is such that—as he thrust while imposing Hell—the 'friction' of his strength overcoming the 'weight' of the spear and the 'air resistance' would have caused the spear to burst into hellfire."
Ashmedai chuckled. "I don't need a spear."
He moved his fist forward in a violent martial strike. The air cracked. For a moment, his hand wreathed in acrid fire—not summoned, not cast, simply generated by the force of his will overcoming resistance.
The fire guttered out as he relaxed.
"Hellfire isn't a weapon," Marcus said slowly, understanding dawning. "It's a byproduct. Evidence of effort."
"Precisely." Ashmedai's coal-red eyes held something like approval. "Hell does not grant power. Hell reveals it. The weight presses down on all things equally. Those who can push back—who can overcome—generate the fire as a consequence of their striving."

"Boaz mentioned there are natives of Hell," Marcus said. "Not just the Fallen. Demons that are different from you?"
Sub-Unit 72 spoke, his metallic voice precise: "Indeed. Your mortal stories have glimpsed them occasionally during Liminality. Utukku, djinn, and such are often poor retellings of encounters with them. Your kind interpret them as spirits of loss or malice, often as taking advantage of mortal thought. That is an inexact reflection, however."
"Inexact how?"
"Certainly those of good or ill intent exist, as beings of any Realm might. But Hell's natives inherently push those they encounter to overcome, as is Hell's nature—often by adding burden to the encounter. Your interpretations that this is malice should be more correctly viewed as encouragement to resist entropy."
Ray, sitting nearby, frowned. "I'm not sure I understand. Tales we have of suffering and torment are based on attempts to help mankind?"
Jack set down the glass he was polishing. "Many are. As Sub-Unit 72 said, there are some in any Realm who have malicious intent. But most do not. Think of your mortal tale of Job."
"Job?"
"The truth of that encounter is that Job learned a great deal about himself after enduring loss from the accuser. And only with Yahweh's bribe did he return to worship. Stripped away from the gifts of his god, Job might have learned to carry himself. That was the accuser's hope, as he worked with Lucifer to help mankind unshackle from worship."
Marcus stared. "Wait. The accuser in Job wasn't Satan?"
Jack laughed—warm, genuine, the too-wide smile finally appearing. "'Satan' is a construct of your changing mortal myth and Heaven's propaganda. Even you can see this if you look closely at your mortal Bible. There is no one Satan. And it is certainly not Lucifer, though Heaven is happy for that inference."
He picked up another glass, began polishing it with practiced ease.
"No, many accusers have existed. In the tale of Job, he was a demon of Hell, working with Lucifer. The Morningstar did not yet have the affinity with Hell to properly use that Realm to showcase freedom from Heaven. So he turned to a friend in Hell seeking assistance, and one such was able to show Job the value of life when overcoming."
"What happened?"
"Sadly, for Lucifer, Job turned back to Yahweh." Jack shrugged, still smiling. "But at least he did it with open eyes."

Hell is not what mortals expect.
There is no fire—except what is generated by those strong enough to overcome the weight. There is no torment—except the burden of existence itself, pressing down on all things equally, crushing the weak and tempering the strong.
The Fallen chose Hell. They walked out of Heaven on principle, and found a Realm where principle could sustain them. Where conviction manifests as survival. Where the proud are held fast and the humble pass through more easily than the mighty.
The demons of Hell are not torturers. They are coaches—brutal, unsympathetic to weakness, but working always toward the same goal: teaching those they encounter to carry themselves.
Hell does not punish. Hell reveals.
Those who can bear the weight emerge stronger. Those who cannot are crushed.
That is not cruelty. That is simply the way things are.

Please Login in order to comment!